At the end of 2017, someone close to me asked: What is your biggest fear in life right now? At first I was like, “Dang. I don’t know. Hmmm.” The question made me uncomfortable. I hid my defensiveness, and secretly judged the question pointless. But I stayed with it. Behind my resisting, my mind was searching for a “right” answer or an “interesting” response, and not necessarily, the truth. So I closed

  2017 for me has been so many things… a long walk into the forest of what it means to be a mother to a human cub, embracing and softening into this body that is creating another life, re-defining what it means to be a family built on love + trust + support, and allowing myself to sink deeper into the secretive, oceanic darkness of emotional pain that I’ve carried

Nothing has been more clear to me than this realisation… I’ve always been able to say what I don’t want, but have had a really hard time saying what it is that I do want. Can you feel me? It’s almost the same feeling as me incessantly saying “yes” when I really want to say “no”. Ugh. After decades of searching outwardly for inspiration, and trying to “be” within myself, it has

Screw temporary happiness. I choose to be empowered by every emotion, each experience, and all that makes me, me. All the damn time. For most of my life, I’ve been trying to “feel better” and it’s turned out to be an exhausting, disappointing, and unrealistic search for “happiness”. Pema Chödrön said, “You are the sky. Everything else — it’s just the weather.” And just like the sun, happiness comes and

As said by Anneli Rufus, “We aren’t born with low self-esteem. It is not possible. The newborn brain lacks this capacity.” A little prayer to grow self-love: I don’t believe I was born disliking myself. Were you? It feels like quite the opposite really. I don’t actually recall having thoughts of whether I should love or dislike who I was when I was little. I was connected to the trees,