Tanya Markul’s path is one of the poetess, intuitive and wounded healer. An unwanted child, she was raised on barren soil, of shame, guilt and overwhelming self-hatred. From the womb, her inner navigation was tainted from an ancestry of addiction, instability, abuse and fear. Her journey to self-heal, and to become ready to guide others, has taken many arduous paths, risks and harrowing rebirths. She is a guide to the
The Question Of 2017 That Changed My Life.
At the end of 2017, someone close to me asked: What is your biggest fear in life right now? At first I was like, “Dang. I don’t know. Hmmm.” The question made me uncomfortable. I hid my defensiveness, and secretly judged the question pointless. But I stayed with it. Behind my resisting, my mind was searching for a “right” answer or an “interesting” response, and not necessarily, the truth. So I closed
I’m Raw. And I’m Not Sorry.
2017 for me has been so many things… a long walk into the forest of what it means to be a mother to a human cub, embracing and softening into this body that is creating another life, re-defining what it means to be a family built on love + trust + support, and allowing myself to sink deeper into the secretive, oceanic darkness of emotional pain that I’ve carried
The One Word That’s Going To Change 2018
Nothing has been more clear to me than this realisation… I’ve always been able to say what I don’t want, but have had a really hard time saying what it is that I do want. Can you feel me? It’s almost the same feeling as me incessantly saying “yes” when I really want to say “no”. Ugh. After decades of searching outwardly for inspiration, and trying to “be” within myself, it has
Screw Happiness — I Want To Be Empowered.
Screw temporary happiness. I choose to be empowered by every emotion, each experience, and all that makes me, me. All the damn time. For most of my life, I’ve been trying to “feel better” and it’s turned out to be an exhausting, disappointing, and unrealistic search for “happiness”. Pema Chödrön said, “You are the sky. Everything else — it’s just the weather.” And just like the sun, happiness comes and
Unlearn Self-Hate & Learn Self-Love
As said by Anneli Rufus, “We aren’t born with low self-esteem. It is not possible. The newborn brain lacks this capacity.” A little prayer to grow self-love: I don’t believe I was born disliking myself. Were you? It feels like quite the opposite really. I don’t actually recall having thoughts of whether I should love or dislike who I was when I was little. I was connected to the trees,